You may be asking yourself how exactly one goes from globetrotting, boardroom badass to soul-centred, chakra aligning entrepreneur…
If you are, not only do you get a virtual high five for being awesome, but you’re also in luck because I’m about to pull back the curtain and share with you one of the most humbling and eye-opening experiences of my life.
It all happened on the streets of New York City, and it is the night I’ll never forget.
I’d spent my fair share of happy hours balancing drinks served in glasses that make no sense, and making small talk with strangers and coworkers, in an effort to drown out that teeny tiny voice in the back of my mind that kept saying, “This isn’t you… YOU were meant for more…”
Seriously, it was beyond annoying.
Maybe I was meant for more little voice, but guess what? I have responsibilities. My parents, my husband, my coworkers and clients all have expectations from me. I don’t get to just decide this isn’t for me!
I’d have this conversation with myself over and over again, especially on days when the travel had exhausted me, when hours in the office felt like a life sentence, and on days when the work I was doing left me feeling like an empty shell of a human being…
Truth is, I knew that little voice was right—this job was sucking the life out of me—the problem was, I hadn’t found the courage to make the changes I knew I needed to make.
You know what I’m talking about right?
That something in your life you know you’d benefit from having less of, doing less of, or that if you stopped doing all together would make all the difference in the world, but you somehow can’t get yourself to stop?
Yeah. That’s what I’m talking about.
Except that for me, it wasn’t a diet that consisted of too much fast food I needed to shift, a gossiping friend I got to set boundaries with or an addiction to social media I could use a detox from.
The thing I needed to stop doing was doubting, mistrusting, and disregarding the steps my intuition was (not so) gently nudging me to take.
Maybe if I’d listened sooner, I wouldn’t have found myself behind the wheel of my car having had several drinks too many… maybe if I’d listened when the universe was tossing pebbles at me, I could have avoided the rocks and eventual boulder all together…
But I didn’t.
I pressed my luck, put my life and the lives of those around me in danger, and spent the longest night of my life detained for driving under the influence.
That night alone with my thoughts, I sat with my guilt and shame and decided it was finally time to surrender.
I had a heart to heart with the annoying little voice I’d spent years trying to drown out that night.
I took a long hard look at myself in the mirror and realized that not only did I not recognize the woman staring back at me, but that she was the voice I’d been doing everything I could to silence.
She was the one calling out to me, cautioning me, and begging me to turn inward for guidance, rather than to the world and those around me. It was the conversation I’d avoided for years and the one that led me to the most life-changing decision I’ve ever made…
The decision to go all in on me.
I’ll have more for you on that tomorrow, but for now, I invite you to answer this question… Has life been throwing pebbles, rocks, or boulders your way in an attempt to get your attention? What’s it going to take in order for you to listen? Come to the Wealth Alchemy Lab Facebook group and let me know, perhaps my experience can serve to shift both my life and yours.