I’ve learned that our individual “awakenings” are just long enough for us to realize that things will never be the same again.
The beauty in that, is that once you wake up to your infinite potential, you understand that you get to choose whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing…
The night I was detained for driving under the influence, was the beginning of my awakening. Things like this just weren’t supposed to happen to people like me. I knew better, I was a lawyer for crying out loud.
So how in the world did this happen? Well, my entire life I’d done exactly what was expected of me. I’d gotten good grades, been accepted to the right colleges, passed the Bar Exam, made sure I could have any job I wanted, and was married to a handsome man with whom I was raising our beautiful son in our million dollar home.
Check, double check, triple check. From the outside looking in, it was easy to think I had it all, but from the inside looking out… it was a much different story.
I didn’t know it yet, but I was a far cry from the woman I believed myself to be. I’d been eating at my problems, drinking at my problems, and desperately trying to fix the cracks in the façade I’d built up around me, before anyone had a chance to notice them…
My motivation and drive were nowhere to be found, and I was masking the empty feelings swirling inside of me with a smile.
I wanted to be honest with myself, and with those around me, but I didn’t really have awareness around the fact that I wasn’t being honest or have the tools necessary to process the emotional, physical, and spiritual transformation I was destined to go through, so, I did the only thing I could think to do… I began trying to fix myself.
Something about the world of personal power, and personal development took me back to Saturday afternoon’s with my Dad, listening to the latest installment of Nightingale Conant.
Pure, simple, and happy. So when my girlfriend mentioned a coaching program she was involved with, I decided to dive in head first.
This world was fun and exciting—something I could see myself doing full time. Problem was, it was way outside the boundaries of what I was “supposed” to be doing.
I wanted to help people, but I was terrified about running a business—especially when it came to marketing and sales.
So when I learned there was a coaching certification offered by this company and work upon completion of that certification I was ecstatic! Coaching was everything I had dreamt it would be; the company on the other hand, was not.
As someone who values integrity above all, I couldn’t stand by and watch as those who were leading this company talked the talk, but failed to walk their walk.
So I left the organization. I was terribly conflicted, I’d had a taste of passion and fulfilment, and had felt alive for the first time in a long time— but was now facing mounting pressure for me to return to corporate America.
I’d managed to break myself out of the box and was doing what I loved, but those I loved—like my husband—just didn’t get it.
He didn’t understand why I would leave a lucrative career behind, in pursuit of coaching.
It was gut wrenching, and caused an incredible amount of tension between us, because no matter how hard he fought me, I just kept moving forward.
I kept the pressure at bay for a while, but the confidence and self awareness I’d recently developed was still in its infancy. I knew better, but didn’t necessarily know how to translate that into doing better.
I fought hard, but the people pleaser inside of me eventually won. I got the job, accepted the invite to the last of my happy hours, and came face to face with the woman I’d allowed myself become.
I knew things would never be the same, and in that moment, I decided this was a good thing.
Have you ever experienced something and regardless of how pleasant or unpleasant it may have been, found that once on the other side, it was the exact thing you needed in order to reach your next level of happiness, growth, and fulfilment?
I’d love to hear about it, your journey and your healing matter more than you know.
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